They say that the different moods that people experience can be associated with different colors. Now I am not talking about those mood rings that many of us remember from the 70's, you remember them, don't even act like you don't. A few of the ones that I remember is red for anger, blue for sadness, green for envy, and yellow for fearful. But the question I have, what is the color for stress?
When I try to think of a color for stress, I come up with nothing at all. But I can't say black because that is reserved for those people that are black hearted. I assume that is for those that are just really evil and harsh. White is to show innocence. So again what it stress?
Now I know it is not purple because I associate that color with religion based on what I have read and seen in the bible. Well I also know that it is the main color for my favorite artist Prince.
I think I have figured it out for myself, it must be transparent. I know transparent is not a color, because it is absent of color, but depending on what caused the stress, that color may shine through. But I don't know if that is a valid statement but it just sounds right.
Right now I am very stressed because I can't stand the way my life is going. I am doing great in school but when it comes to the teams I am on for school, major problems creep up and pushes me back. Out of five classes so far, only 1 team was successful from beginning to end. The other teams would fall apart near the end and I would find myself having to finish a lot on my own. At least this time we are only losing one member, but he was the leader. Now I have to jump in and bring the team to the finish line. BOOM STRESS!
The other major issue with my stress level is the fact that my self-confidence is being tested on a daily basis as I continue the search for another job. There comes a time when people like to give up, but I try my best to stay in the game but my ability to stand fast is being chipped away. As my confidence goes away bit by bit, I start to doubt everything about me. That is a dangerous road to travel, but that is where I am right now. I just hope that I can change things soon before I really sink back to the level I was in 4 years ago at this time.
For those that remember that time period, you know what to expect, I just hope I make it through that level as quickly as I can. Otherwise, the person you all know will not be the same anymore.
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