I think the Brady Bunch said it the best "when it's time to change, you've got to rearrange, who you are into what you're going to be". Yes I know it is very corny, but the statement is very true if you really stop to think about it. But as always, "it's easier said than done".
If you are able to list 3 things that you don't like about yourself and try to work on each thing, what is the priority that you would used to organize what you want to start with. Do you start with money, health, love, intelligence, hobbies, sleeping or even those that you have around you? Which one is the most important thing in your life...because the priorities in your life changes from week to week, year to year.
Let's say I start with health. That would be easy and hard because I LOVE GREAT TASTING FOOD and that does not help me with my weight, blood pressure, hypertension or staying out of the kitchen when I am stressing over something. I would love to sit down with a fork and a cheesecake from The Chessecake Factory and just completely nuts. Bite by bite giving me the emotional equal to an orgasm. Yes you read that correctly, I said the O word because that is exactly how I feel about cheesecake.
Ok, so if I can't start with health, do I start with intelligence? I know some people what already call me smart, but the only problem with that is...they like to add the word "ass" on to the end of smart. I may not have the same book smarts that people have from major college courses, but I do have great street smarts. I have an opinion on most issues that people present to me, or at least I have heard of the issue previously. Yeah I know, I am in college right now and learning a lot of things I never knew previously...but it is all geek related with computers, networks, switches, routers, servers, operating systems, databases, programming languages....ugh and the list keeps going from there! I watch the news for about a day, and then get tired of all the news and bury my head into other non-news channels. I know I have intelligence...but I don't want to be so smart that I forget how to tie...um, you know, those things you put on your feet...oh yeah, shoes. I have read about some people that get so smart that reality doesn't make sense any longer.
Hmm, since I am ok with my intelligence and my health, then I guess I would have to start with love. That is an easy one to deal with. I know what I like and I know who I like, too bad the same feelings of love are no longer there. So it is still easy, because I can just become a heartless bastard that pushes everyone away so that I don't have to be hurt by someone that just doesn't care. Well, I have to clarify that, it's not that they don't care, they do care, but about their own cares. So again it is still easy to deal with because I can just become the same type of person and get what I want however I have to get it! Who cares if the other person is not happy with the situation, who cares if no clear answers were given to the tons of questions about what changed.
I am not even going to think about the other items because it gets to the point that you realize that there is too many things to change in your life....well that is if you have a pathetic life like me. I am still a nice guy and like to spend time with people, but it just seems like I am spending time, wishing for change, instead of spending time, making things change.
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